Sometimes I Write

It’s officially after midnight here in Colorado and I need to get my bum in bed. But first I get to announce that it is here…what you might ask? October 4th! What a glorious day! O.K. so it’s still dark and will be for several more hours…bear with me here. Four years ago today God blessed our lives with a beautiful baby girl. When she wakes up in a few hours asking where all of her presents are, she will have messy hair in her eyes, probably want to wear one of her brother’s shirts while carrying her pink princess cell phone in one hand, and a sword in the other. That is the wonderful essence that is Zoe. My smiling little sweetheart that loves to take on both of her brothers. She’s tough yet tender. I love it! I can’t imagine life without her! She has already requested Chocolate chip pancakes with whipped cream for breakfast. Yummy. We’ll spend the morning as a family and let her open her gifts, then the rest of the day is packed with activities while Benny works. Should be fun, huh?

Happy Golden Birthday Princess Zoe!

October 4th is also special because tonight is the season premiere of LOST…one of the best shows on television. Adam, I know you’ll be tuning in! Shay even joked about canceling worship team rehearsal so we don’t miss it. Thank you God for our DVR!!! It is one of my few T.V. joys – indulge me.

I’m beginning to be a bit of a downer, aren’t I? I’m hoping to get my groove back anytime now. It’s been a week since I got sick, and I’m just not improving very quickly. This morning the sore throat was back, though not bad enough to warrant meds. My energy is extremely low and I’m crabby. Benny told me today he wants his nice wife back. 😦 (Sorry honey!) What on earth is keeping me down???

Stress. That’s got to be it. I don’t slow down very well. We have been a freight train family for the past few months and in reality, we ‘re supposed to be a stage coach family. We want people to find rest in us and with us and instead I think we’ve been inviting others to be busy and running constantly with us. Maybe I’m not healing quickly because I need the rest. In all truthfulness I want the rest too, I just don’t want to feel bad to have to get it. I thought I had gotten good at just saying no and not volunteering for everything under the sun. I guess I need to take another look at my priorities and make sure my activities are in line with them.

I also need to declutter my life again. I am a born-organized person, but I have certain areas of my life that seem to be in constant chaos. For instance, I have paper piles that I have no idea what is in them. Flylady says babysteps will get me through it. Every once in awhile I fall off the Flylady wagon…time to climb back on. I need to tackle the mental clutter too. Oi! That’s a fun word – Thanks Billy! 🙂

Stress and clutter…that could be it…but right now I just need more sleep…

If you don’t frequent my other blog – I’d love your thoughts on the latest topic being discussed there.

There was another school shooting here in Colorado today. ;(
It’s been 7 years since the shootings at Columbine High School and still the city feels the weight of it.

Today, a man (name is still not being released) walked into Platte Canyon High School and took a group of girls hostage – he dismissed the boys from the classroom – the guy talked with negotiators through the girls. There was a boy who had tried to insist on staying with the girls, but the man put the gun to his head and made him leave too. By 4 p.m. he had released all but two of the girls. A SWAT team stormed the classroom to try to save the two girls and the man shot one of them in the head. He then turned the gun on himself. The girl who was shot – Emily Keyes, died a short time later. It all took place in Bailey, a small mountain community about an hour from my house. My heart aches for her family and friends. As a parent, I think that would be the most horrible news anyone could give me. Please pray for this family, school, and community.

Thank you so much for the prayers, comments left here, emails and phone calls. I am on the road to recovery. I went to see Dr. Zack Monday morning. Think me crazy, but after lots of adjusting I quickly began to improve. I had been taking a homeopathic flu med all weekend, plus Tylenol Sore Throat – which didn’t seem to help much. My back and neck were really out of whack. It was no surprise that he recommended lots of rest this week. We stopped at The Vitamin Cottage on the way home and Benny got me some Lavender bath stuff and a treat – a REAL SIMPLE magazine. If you’ve never read one – you must! This is one of my favorite mags and it’s a mystery why I don’t subscribe to it yet. Guess what I’ll be asking Santa for this year? 😉 Back to my story…when we arrived home, my wonderfully amazing husband got the bathtub ready for me and ordered me off to relax with my new read. I spent the next hour soaking in the warmth and smell, thoughts and ideas to try when I’m healthy again, and the quiet time alone in the bathroom. When you have three young children, even bathroom time isn’t spent alone – unless you remember to lock the door – and my brain doesn’t compute that function. If I am ever your houseguest – kindly remind me! 😉

While I was absorbing all those minerals into my body, the water absorbed the last of my energy. I spent the rest of the day in bed watching movies and savoring my magazine. By bedtime I had no fever and no sore throat! YEAH! This morning I woke up feeling much better though not yet normal. The swelling in my neck is almost completely gone and I was able to move at normal speed again. I took it easy most of the morning and then had a few hours of stupidity this afternoon. I did way too much and now I’m wiped out again. Supper is in the oven and Benny should be home soon. I’ll be spending the rest of the evening in bed or on the couch. Some days the whole Supermom thing goes to my head. Will I ever learn?

My biggest thank you goes to the man who said he’d love me in sickness and in health – I know which one he prefers! 🙂 He brought me a pretty constant flow of hot tea, chicken soup broth, and water. He checked on me and encouraged me to rest. He kept the vaporizer filled. You already heard about the bath. He fed the kids, played with them, and most importantly kept them out of our bedroom so I could rest alone and quietly and so they wouldn’t get sick too. I love that man!

Benny – you are my hero!!! THANK YOU!!!

I am in desperate need of your prayers. I have been incredibly sick and in bed for three days. My temperature has fluctuated between 101 and 102, my throat is swollen and hot and I can barely swallow. My body feels like it has been beaten, and my head throbs when I sit up for too long. I’m calling the doctor tomorrow – Monday morning. It has been years since I have been to the doctor due to illness – it’s really bad.

I missed the Women of Faith conference this weekend – I had paid $65.00 per ticket for my friend Linda and I to attend together. She came with some other women to Denver, and thankfully was able to get the ticket from me and sit with them. I’m incredibly sad that I missed out on a weekend with her! I also missed worshipping with my church family today. Our worship team rehearsal had gone so well Wednesday night that I was joyfully anticipating today’s music, then I had to stay in bed instead.

Please pray for quick healing and no throat pain – The medicine I’ve taken isn’t even touching the pain anymore.

Thank you friends!